Hot Tubs, Halloween, & Happy Birthday to ME!

Well, it has been a while since I have posted anything on here.... September 20th... Sooo almost two months ago. In that time span a lot has happened. Madison turned seven, I celebrated my birthday (a few times!), finished one of my 8 week online courses, HALLOWEEEN!, and we finally got the hot tub up and running! The first major event was the Toga Party. Unfortunately, only a handful of people wore their togas because the weather was unseasonably cool. It was a great event, lots of people showed up, food was good, and the beer was even better. The JELLO shots weren't too bad either! (Thanks Amber!) If you're reading this blog chances are you have already taken a peek at the pics from the Toga Party anyways.... I also had a few birthday dinners in October. What can I say? I LOVE celebrating birthdays! Madison turned seven, and she had a small party with her dad and his family and got some great gifts! My best gift was from Dave...a new digital camera..LOVE IT! The hot tub was a gift from my uncle to my parents and its fabulous!!! Although I had a LITTLE too much hot tub last night and had to pay for my mistake today! School is going well, this semester is about half over. I have a few major projects that are due pretty soon that I really need to get cracking on. It just seems like I have a lot of distractions lately that are keeping me from focusing more on school. This computer obviously being one of them!!! Halloween was fun this year.. Madison wanted to be a pumpkin and she got TONS of candy because she went all over the place. I dressed up as Cleopatra and had a pretty good time down at the Bier Stube. Also got to see a lot of interesting and creative costumes down there later in the evening. Work is going as well as can be expected. We are really short staffed on CNAs and I've been working 40 hrs most weeks which sucks because I need that extra day off to keep up with school. Literally every single day I'm off work calls and wants me to pick up a variety of shifts...Luckily a lot of the first shift girls have been staying over, coming in early, and picking up shifts here and there. It just gets so ridiculous. We finally got rid of a patient that needed a sitter that was sucking up one of our staff members so that helped out. The problem now is that our productivity is in the shitter, so the execs won't sign off on hiring new staff until it gets over 100%. Soo... this definitely won't be happening before Christmas which really stinks. The good thing about that is that I switched and am working NYE 1st shift instead of NYD 1st shift. I have a super cute dress for NYE that I CAN'T WAIT to wear out! Well thats about all thats going on in my neck of the woods. Thanks for reading!

Noteably Quotable

Well, I haven't blogged for a while, but whenever I go back and read over my entries, I have a strong urge to blog. But I wonder, what do I want to blog about? Every once in a while I have a situation that I really really really REALLY want to write about, but I don't want the whole world to read. I don't know how many people ACTUALLY read this, but I know that if it gets into the wrong hands.... Well I'm sure everyone can relate to that. That is why I have so many different friends 'lists' on facebook, because I just can't trust people. I don't have a problem being someone's friend on facebook, but I don't think that EVERY SINGLE PERSON that I confirm as a 'friend' need to see my *sometimes* ridiculous pics or know what I'm doing for the weekend (i.e. my status updates). I suppose I'm just as guilty as that also but I don't go up to said person's mother and speak my peace. In my book, that's just being fuckin shady. My mother always knows where I am and who I'm with. That's part of my stipulation for living at home. It doesn't really bother me all that much. But sometimes I'm reminded of the freedom of living on my own. When Madison stays with her dad on the weekends while I worked, I didn't have to come back to my apartment if I didn't want to. I could stay wherever I wanted, or I could have whoever I wanted stay the night. My mother did not need to know this, but now that I live at home, she is privvy to this information. I'm not saying its right or wrong. I'm just making a point. I think it would be wrong for me to be out all hours of the night and not come home until the next morning if Madison was at home. I think that would be bad. I'm not going to say its never happened....Because it has...I guess I don't have any real concrete thoughts, my mind is just wandering, and my fingers are typing faster than my thoughts.
I can't believe that Madison is going to be seven in a few weeks. This makes me feel strangely old. I don't know why seven is such a bigger deal than six. Perhaps it is because throughout the last year I've had to buy her clothes in the girls section instead of the infant/toddler section? Some of her shirts I have to buy in girls size medium! I'm like..WHAAAT.!? Now I know why I never had cool clothes growing up, clothes are expensive... and since I never had a little sister for which these clothes could be handed down to, I think I was a little overlooked in that dept. Well, I don't really have anything to say that's important, I was just bored. I SHOULD be studying for my MicroBiology exam that's on Wednesday, but I think sitting around watching TV sounds a LITTLE more fun!

Summer's Over?!?!?!

I can't believe how fast this summer went by. It seemed like just yesterday I was finishing up wtih my Spring Semester! I have had a great summer! I've met some new people and had a lot of great memories. School starts on Monday and I'm really looking forward to it because I need to get back on track. Madison started her first full week of first grade and she couldn't be happier. Work has been pretty busy, and I just recently got back from a week long vacay in Minnesota with the family. This has led us to the conclusion that we need to go again next summer with perhaps a few other people! Well I'm pretty tired and would like to go to bed and watch some TV. Have a great weekend!

I never

I'm sure everyone at some point in their life has played the game 'I Never.' I've realized that I've been saying the phrase a lot (and meant it! )So I decided to make a list of things that I've never done or seen before. Should be interesting..

If you don't count when I was pregnant, I've never went longer than a month without drinking since I was 17.

I've never seen any of the Star Wars movies in their entirety.

I've never seen GhostBusters 1 or 2 in it's entirety.

This one I'm not very proud of; I've never seen all of The Goonies (and I was born in the 80's!!!!)

I've never been on an airplane or train.

I've never left the United States.

I've never owned a passport (judging by the one before this I'm not surprised!)

I've never had a tattoo that couldn't be easily covered.

I've never liked wearing a watch.

I've never read the Bible all the way through.

I've never cheated on a test.

I've never fully gotten over the hurtful things that have been said to me over the years by people that I knew, especially my family.

I've never enjoyed eating meat off the bone in front of people, this list also includes food that falls apart easily such as tacos or sloppy joes, oh and ice cream and popsicles too.

I've never been in love.

I've never been more pissed than when LOST ended and all my questions weren't answered and felt like I wasted 6 plus years of my life watching that shit! GRR!

I've never been on an absolutely horrible date where I had to fake a story to leave early.

I've never liked the color yellow which is why I don't own anything yellow to my knowledge.

I've never been able to control my competitve side when playing recreational sports, card games, board games, or trivia nights.

I've never been truly, completely happy for a long period of time.

I've never realized how bad a Cougar could suck at volleyball (Ha Traci!)

I've never liked deleting pictures from my camera after I take them because there was a reason the picture was taken and I don't want to forget it, even if I had two chins and my eyes are closed.

I've never done a keg stand (and before a few weeks ago I had never done a beer bong!)

I've never really thanked my parents enough for all that they have done for me in my life, and I hope that one day I will be able to thank them appropriately.

Well I hope you enjoyed reading this, feel free to think of your own list, and add it to mine!

The '-ISM' is Back

Every once in a while it just creeps up on me.... Everyone knows that I like to tip back a few from time to time, but every so often (usually a few times a year) my 'ism' creeps up on me. I have to take a step back and realize that I'm just drinking too much and/or too often. Sooo I need to take a break (at least until the weekend) to get my faculties in order. Luckily, I'm working a lot this week, today is my only day off. I've just been dealing with a lot of emotional stuff these past few months, and the alcohol seems to really knock it loose. I've just been displaying some odd behaviors that I really don't appreciate. I need to work through things and everything will be all right. My mother has of course picked up on the increase in my drinking and is concerned too, and rightfully so. She will be gone all this weekend and I think that is for the best, maybe I'll stay home and just decompress (one of my new favorite words). Last night after talking to my BFF, Jena, I actually got some good advice from her. Go figure the girl that doesn't know where the Dugout or the Hawkeye Tap is in Davenport even though she's lived here for over 18 years... can give out some pretty solid advice. So thanks to Jena for being a coool chick, and my best friend. Oh, and thanks for the famous notepad entry 'This is soooo reminiscent of Jared Tygart in the 7th grade'

Beginning of Summer

I haven't written for a while, and there really isn't any excuse for it. I've spending a lot of time hanging out with some friends and families and working. Work has been crazy recently and I've worked a couple of night on second shifts because they're just soo short on 2nds. This works out nice for me because they were all call-in pay, so I should have a pretty great check! Madison started her softball last week so she's pretty excited about that. She hit a triple and then carried the bat for two bases! Pretty sure she was the only one who did that. There really isn't much going on with me, I'm just keeping busy with work, volleyball, and Madison. I guess I'm going to get myself some breakfast because I'm hunnngry!!!! I am 'seeing' someone right now, but I'm not sure if and when it will go anywhere. I will keep everyone updated!

Wild Weekend

Well I had a pretty ridiculous weekend. I'm just soo incredibly fed up with my life right now. I've once again jumped the gun with another situation and I just don't know what to do. I'm sooo sick and tired of getting my hopes up and then have them stomped on. It's always supposed to happen when you least expect it. Well I've been 'least expecting it' for a long time! I'm just trying to move on with my life and find someone to do that with me, and its just not working.

Manswers Vol. 1

Sooo.... I've been hearing some hub-bub about this show called Manswers. I had never watched it or heard of it before until recently. Although it is a little corny, I definitely enjoyed watching it. I added it on my Netflix Queue and it arrived on Friday. I've watched most of the disc...Best of Season 1 and it was pretty interesting. Perhaps the most interesting thing I learned was that it takes 35 pounds of pressure to crush a beer can....which can be done with HHH boobs, which surprisngly I don't have (ha!). So I had a pretty calm past couple of weekends which has been good. I've had some baby daddy drama, but that's to be assumed. I'm finally deciding to stick to my guns with things that I have said. Usually I cave and say, 'Oh alright, fine whatever.' But this time its serious and I mean what I said. Hopefully he will actually follow through. On a more positive note, one of my girl friends and one of my guy friends are really hitting it off. It's not a match I would have predicted, but it definitely makes sense. Hopefully things will work out for the best. *You know who you are ! * As far as my love life goes, its up in the air. I've hit a rough patch in life where my 6 month 'guarantee' is approaching on match. com. If you are lucky enough to NOT be familiar with this site... Allow me to explain.... You pay for 6 months up front and if you follow a few EASY stipulations and DON'T find love at the end of 6 months you receive another 6 months free. The stipulations include: Keeping your profile visible to other users at ALLL times, having a primary (profile) picture visible at all times, and sending five NEW e-mails a month.... This means that I've sent out THIRTY e-mails and only went out with TWO different people... Not very good odds for me. But I've set a few of my friends up on match.com, and they have had much better success than me. I'm not sure if I'm just too picky (I really don't think I am) or if they're just too old (hahahaha!)
Don't you just HATE it when you like someone... and they like you too... but things just don't work out the way you want them to? This kind of situation happens to me ALLLLL the time. I can be a pretty patient person, and I guess I just have to allow this to happen in my relationships with others.
One good thing that I've decided to do this summer is to start writing a book. I'm not sure what I want to write about. I have thoughts for a fiction novel, tons of different ideas... I also have thoughts of making a collection of my blogs and other random thoughts and compiling them together to make a sort of 'bathroom' or 'coffee table' book. I would love to hear some of your input on this subject.
I've been typing for a while tonight, so I'm going to take a break... But I'm definitely looking forward to hearing some of your thoughts and opinions about this blog. Thanks for reading, have a great night!

Family....The ties that bind.... and gag...

Why is it that we feel the need to bud into other people's business so readily? What ever happened to privacy? The onset of social networking sites such as facebook, myspace, and twitter have made it almost impossible to have any privacy. (Unless of course you are stealth like me and know how to customize your security settings!) I am wary about who I accept on fb and so I have discovered a way to keep things I want kept private..private! If you need any help doing this, let me know and I'll definitely be able to help you! Soo... today we had our Family Easter... and it seemed a bit chaotic. I arrived late because I had to work and when I got there everyone had already started eating.... So I plopped down at a table and made some small talk with a few cousins. This continued for the next two hours and then it was over. It just seemed like all we did was eat and talk and then quickly left. Thats all right with me because I had plans with my girls tonight. (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE). Sometimes family is a very tricky thing. You have to change the way you speak or act around them just so you feel accepted. When did family morph into that? I thought we were able to tell our family everything and feel accepted no matter what? I have more to say, but prefer to keep it quiet right now.

Toxic Relationships

So I've been doing a lot of thinking and 'soul searching' these past few months, and there have been some things that really bother me. I've definitely noticed a pattern with females... Why do we constantly surround ourselves with negative influences in our life? Life is too short to surround yourselves with people who just bring you down. Some people in our lives have done horrible, even unspeakable things to us, yet we just move on and keep them in our lives. I'm not saying that we need to just kick people out of our lives (although I've definitely been guilty of that before) but we definitely need to evaluate our relationships. Some people are able to forgive and forget but I'm not always one of those people. There have been people in my life who have hurt me pretty badly and I have let them back in but with my stipulations. I make sure to keep certain things personal in my life and only share what I choose to share. I suppose I'm guilty of the same things from time to time but I'm going to try and be more aware of it. I'd appreciate any comments you may have.

First Entry

Hello readers! This is my first entry on this site. I also have a blog on myspace, but I rarely use that site anymore. I will do my best to continue my blogging on here. I don't have much to say, just trying to get the hang of this site. Have a great Spring Break (for those of you who got one). Apparently on-line students are not granted a reprieve from school because of the nice weather. DICKS!